I have another bruise on my leg from my insulin injections. It's all yellow and ugly. It's on the same leg as what I deem to be my worst leg that has a horrible lump under the skin. I hate it. The left hand side of my stomach has a permanent lump. I hate it. It's times like these when I feel fed up of being diabetic. I get drained with it sometimes, day in, day out and trying to find somewhere I can inject that won't bruise, won't hurt, won't mean getting a new lumpy bit. What on earth am I going to look like in 20 years? Three times as bruised and lumpy. In May next year it will be 10 years and I already have lumps patterned with red marks. Another 20 years and...., well I don't want to think about it.
Money is tight as well. It says alot when you have to sell CDs to be able to afford to post a book you've sold to earn some money.
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