It's nearly 3am and I am still awake, contemplating all the things I could be doing. I was up until 2am finishing off a James Patterson book I started on Sunday. I just couldn't put it down. Anyway, that's finished and I now have another 2 of his calling to me, but they'll have to wait. The reason I'm not asleep is because I'm having an intense thought moment - wondering why I can't switch off.
I told myself I'd allow myself to relax, read and catch up with people. Now as it turns out, I am still incredibly broke so I can afford to do very little. The reading part is going well - but perhaps a little too well as it's possibly the reason I am still awake and panicking how I am ever going to have the time or money to do everything I want to do. It's crazy isn't it? I have the same argument with myself way too often.
Tonight, and over the past few days I have been reminded of some things I always wanted to learn more about. Things I used to daydream about every so often in between my daydreams of being a teacher. I have applied for jobs which will get me off these shifts at work and would give me more money. I need both of these things. So while my mind was still fresh, I started looking at courses online, psychology to be precise. It was another thing I loved doing, understanding the way people think (maybe one day I can.understand why I can't sit still when it comes to learning). I also want to learn shorthand, always have and I think it would make writing all this alot quicker instead of typing away on the chacha. I also still have the languages I want to learn, at least sufficient for a comfortable conversational level holiday-wise.
And now I've finally managed to make myself sleepy...... I hope.
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