Writing a novel is like driving a car at night. You can only see as far as your headlights, but you can make the whole trip that way. - E.L. Doctorow

This quotation was in a book I have just read. It was one of the oens for a£1. The book is called 'Die For You' and it's by Lisa Unger and it was incredible. An amazingly well crafted book; a page turner. I could barely put it down! There were a few things which 'spoke' to me in this book. This quotation was one of them. It was on the page titled Part 2. Maybe that's how I am going to write my book; I'll make the journey with just the headlights on. After reading this book though, I know the journey is going to be long. This takes me to the next point which stems from the same quotation and ties in with something else in the book.

I actually like driving at night; in fact I prefer it. I have always loved the night time. There has always seemed something special about night time, like it has some strange power and energy that I can't ever describe to someone else. Night has always been the time when I am most thoughtful, most creative, most worried, most calm. I look out at the stars (if I can see them) and I feel like I could get lost. I always used to stay up late when I was younger and I used to love being out at night. I still do. In the early hours of my birthday (just a few weeks ago), when the snow was everywhere and I was looking around and up at the sky I felt the same peace I always used to feel years ago.
Lately I haven't been sleeping. I haven't been able to switch off and I thought that maybe its constantly using the computer late. I think that is it to some extent. But maybe its also a part of me telling me that's when you work best. I noted this some time ago, for some reason I do work well when I work late at night. Words for essays and assignments have always flowed more easily. (Although I have to say sometimes I seem to work very well in the late afternoon - like 3pm-5pm) So back to the book: On page 197, Linda remembers something her father used to say to her as they both suffered from insomnia: "We're the moonwalkers [...] alone with the stars". It seemed so poetic and described how I used to feel when I was younger (I've not slept well for years) and could look up at the stars. So I've decided I am no longer going to view my lack of sleep as an annoyance. I'm going to look at it like I used to years and years ago: a blessing. I'm being given the time to get back to who I am. I'm getting the time to be feel everything I want to, to do everything I can, achieve whatever I can and share it with the stars. :-)

Now just two things - I wish I could write as much for my book as I write for this blog and now that I've said this, I have a feeling I may end up sleeping as soundly as never before.