There are short-cuts to happiness, and dancing is one of them. ~Vicki Baum

Just recently, I was saying to Alex how I miss dancing. By this, I don't mean structured class dancing, but just go-out-to-a-club-dancing. I think I miss it so much now, because I don't do it very often. Years ago, going out every Tuesday I think I took it for granted that I always have that as a means of letting go and now, I think, I didn't enjoy it enough.

I love dancing, but I can't really dance. I just wiggle, waggle, move my arms in some kind of fashion but it makes me happy. Nowadays I go out to the pub and talk which I also love. I do love being out and talking to people, but sometimes I just feel like I need to dance. I'm listening to some music now that I like dancing to and I can only waggle my head to it due to the laptop being on my knee. The thing is, I like dancing in a group of people and that is where my problem is. I have so few available-to-dance friends (and by available I don't mean single but people who are in my area, willing to go out and dance)

I also want the excuse to get dressed up again. I was having a sort out on Friday and came across a few pictures of me which were taken before I went out on those Tuesdays all them years ago and it reminded me of how much I loved getting dressed up, curling my hair or straightening it, wearing my heels and going out.

What's frustrating, is there is no reason why all this should have stopped, although I wouldn't want to do it every week and it's not as though I need lots of money as I drink little (to get drunk) and once I find somewhere I like I'm not likely to move from club to club dancing. In short, it's now a lack of like-minded people.

My goal for the next few weeks is to go out somewhere, maybe get slightly tipsy, dress up in something I haven't worn, with my heels, go out and let go. I want to feel like I've got that part of me back.