I haven't written anything in ages and today after completing a 5km run in 37 mins (I am chuffed about this) I was reminded of my blog. I don't know if anything has changed but I am only 5 weeks and 3 days until I draw a line beneath one chapter in my life and wondering if the next chapter will be everything I want it to be.
But here's the thing, I know it will be, because it will be my decisions and choices that I will be living out, I'll be doing something I know I can feel passionate about. That's enough for me to know, that I'm getting back to being me. The me which knew I could do anything and the me that was positive about everything. This time last year my positivity was through the roof, I was excited about doing something I'd always wanted to do. That disappeared, and I felt like part of me had died.
Now I'm getting me back, little by little, I feel excited, excited about Italy, excited about doing something new, excited about knowing I'm going to have the time to do things that I really enjoy! And to top it all off, I know, I'll make the time. That's the difference, I stopped believing I had control of my own time. in 5 weeks and 3 days, nothing will be stopping me from having control of my time, which despite what you may think, isn't work. Work has controlled some of my time, but rather, it's the negative state I've gotten myself into, through doing something that I didn't want to do anymore, that has been zapping my time and my energy.
Time is the coin of your life. It is the only coin you have, and only you can determine how it will be spent. Be careful lest you let other people spend it for you. ~Carl Sandburg
